泳儿-喜欢一个人好累

昨天你送我一个笑脸
今天你经过了我身边
每天你这样一举一动
都影响我的悲伤喜悦
昨天你多看了我一眼
今天我有些心不在焉
哪天我才会有勇气勇敢面对
暗恋喜欢一个人好美
想像你轻轻搂我的肩
走在人挤人的街
抓紧你的手甜蜜无限
暗恋喜欢一个人好累
流泪在数不尽的黑夜
想念变成了习惯
想你一遍遍你却好远
如果你不当我是朋友
而是其他重要的角色
是否我就可以占有你每个笑容
喜欢一个人真的好累

complicated feeling

Well, today I damn easily emotional . especially with a person that I had no idea . I’m not sure what friend told me is true or fault. and I not even sure what is mine now, what is true answer behind . like my dad say , I m treating everyone as my friend , good with them, in the end I a person who will get hurt .i really don’t know how to describe my feeling now . I keep on thinking the past memories with you , thinking that are we two have chance become a couple or we just maintain the brother sister relationship?? Because I know that last time you really treating me very good and more than others treat me . and somehow I wish I can go back the time when we working together . I miss the joyful and sweet time with you , I can say that you really do a lot thing for me , although is just a small thing, but it mean a lot for me . Angelice told me that we two very shady , and she say that the way you treat me is very different , and bla ..bla… in that moment I was stunt and I can’t believe on it , and I told her , that he treat me well is because of I’m her sister that why like this , but angelice say that ‘s not a answer . but still I m not dare to think more and go 1 more step, I scare to get hurt , I afraid to face it .

lastly, my career , Inside my deeper heart , I want to success , I want show other who am I ? I want to prove to others that who look me down , make my parent feel proud of me . I m just want to shine at the sky !! but I know I lost myself , I like standing t-junction not dare to make a move . am I scare ? am I lose faith ? or what ? I just damn freaking scare to move , like my dad said , because I getting a lot of hurt and not even release out , that why it cause thing happen like nowadays .well .. I need to find balance , a balance of my life . so that return to chili girl and rock the word . I can do it , nick vjuick can , I must can . cause I want financial freedom , enjoy my lifestyle with my family =) . cheers I can do it .

everyone said.....

Well.. everyone say that me and him are like couple . and my lovely siss hope we can together . at fist . I was told my self , me and him just like a brother and sister . that’s all . cause I know that he had a gf . but until just now I only that he break up with his’s gf. And also just know that he was like me too, well… this is what my friend said . I m not sure this is true or not , because I all the time treat him like brother . but everyone sad that , he treat me more den a sister . to be honest, I had no idea , I duno what is my feeling now ? just know that is complicated . I keep on flash back previous time and think on it . yes, I admit I miss the fun time with him . I admit that , that is no one , treat me so well like him . all the guy treat meWell.. everyone say that me and him are like couple . and my lovely siss hope we can together . at fist . I was told my self , me and him just like a brother and sister . that’s all . cause I know that he had a gf . but until just now I only that he break up with his’s gf. And also just know that he was like me too, well… this is what my friend said . I m not sure this is true or not , because I all the time treat him like brother . but everyone sad that , he treat me more den a sister . to be honest, I had no idea , I duno what is my feeling now ? just know that is complicated . I keep on flash back previous time and think on it . yes, I admit I miss the fun time with him . I admit that , that is no one , treat me so well like him . all the guy treat me like a brother. Only him is different from others. But this , can prove anything ?? I had no idea. Well.. just let it be , as l know , I need to focus my career – Qnet . cause I need finiacial freedom . I want my family have a better life and I need to prove to people that who look me down . like a brother. Only him is different from others. But this , can prove anything ?? I had no idea. Well.. just let it be , as l know , I need to focus my career – Qnet . cause I need finiacial freedom . I want my family have a better life and I need to prove to people that who look me down .

on call 36 hours

recently  i watched  on call 36 . for me  is a best  movie. coz is a meaning  full  drama  from tvb . and i  get inspired from this drama too . the most  impact  and most inspired me , which is  the  part where  by  ben and  Micheal conversation .  

he say that  ( Chinese ) :  咬紧牙根面对自己的失败，面对所有人的目光，重新再来然后告诉自己，你虽然犯过错，可是你仍然可以成为一位好医生，或许你的过错所以比任何让更明白如何当一位好医生。 well  this  sentences, giving me a good inspired . and  reflected  what is my  mistake and motivate me to  go on .  face it   and overcome it . yeah!! i can become more better !!

all is well

somehow i really  don't understand , what is she  thinking ? well... she just make pisses off .i really had  nothing to say  toward  her  attitude . well.. what to do ?  what  i can say is  .. just too self  fish. i can sacrifice everything  toward  everything , may be  there is ur  dream , u try to  protect  it and not  going to  pay for it . well , is ok .  i  just keep  doing it . all is  well! =)

FUCK OFF

THAT 'S ALL ,  PLS  FUCK OFF. I M  DAMN  HATE IT K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

拜金女

那些年。。。。  突然间 我有很多的回忆，很多的 往事 很想把它放映的去回味。 很多的甜酸苦辣的回忆。这一些都是让我成长的过程，也让我学习及明白很多的东西。 虽然，过程中， 我有泪有笑。 也失去了一段珍贵的友情。我到底这么了， 脑海很混乱。不管， 现在的我 ， 只要 能往上爬， 我都会不惜一切的付出。 我没有后退！ 拜金女王 说过： 宁可在audi车哭， 也不要在toyota 放空！！ 做拜金女， 没什么不好，  至少她知道，他要怎样的生活，努力的为她的人生奋斗=）